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I turn 18 in a week!
Yeah buddy.
Aggieland this weekend.
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| i almost got shot! |
[26 Aug 2007|09:18pm] |
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well kind of.
i was at the gas station and i cut this guy off when i was backing out i guess and he got out of his car and was like "FUCK YOU! SLUTTY ASS BITCH GET OVER HERE!" then i gave him the finger and he started running after my car, so i like peeled out of there.
and he was a wigger so it made it kind of funny.
hahaa go back to your trailor ass hole.
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[06 Jun 2007|07:57pm] |
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| wisdom teeth. |
[14 Mar 2007|02:45am] |
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ow. the places where i used to have wisdom teeth this morning hurt.
and my meds that are supposed to knock me out are keeping me awake?
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[20 Feb 2007|07:21am] |
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i can't believe swimming is over.
hell yeah bring on water polo!!!!!!!
oh & i'm getting a 4 on this TAKS thing.
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[18 Feb 2007|07:51pm] |
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4th in state bitches.
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[14 Feb 2007|10:09pm] |
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so today is valentine's day.
single? sucks. yeah.
oh wells!
i still got presents =]]
my mom got me chanel earrings.
which is awesome.
but yeah today at practice, i pulled something in my neck/upper back and it HURTS LIKE A BITCH to move it at all. it actually kind of hurts to talk since my jaw moves. so when doing freestyle i felt like stabbing myself. but it feels a little better now, but that's probably because tyler just gave me a magnificant massage. but yeah... uhm practice is at 730 tomorrow. YES for 30 more minutes of sleep.
oh and 4 more days of no myspace. i really want to get on. lol
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[13 Feb 2007|08:52pm] |
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so i decided not to get on myspace for a week.
it's amazing how much more i can get done!
woooooo
oh and EPIC NEWS!!!
i'm going to the mother concert of ALL concerts in the entire world ever.
it includes:
+Chiodos
+The Used
+Saosin
+30 Seconds To Mars
+Senses Fail
+Aiden
+Evaline
Do I even need to say anything else? I don't care much for Aiden and Evaline, but they're still good.
But the first 5 bands in ONE SHOW!?!?!! yeah i'll probably cry from happiness. lol no joke at all.
and my mom just randomly surprised me with The Killers tickets when they come to the
Frank Erwin Center?
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| regionals. |
[05 Feb 2007|11:50am] |
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SUCKED.
I added 3 seconds to my IM and got 9th.
I would've gotten 4th.
I added 2 seconds to my fly and got 10th.
I would've gotten 6th.
Just kill me.
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| 2006 Survey |
[31 Dec 2006|02:37pm] |
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[30 Dec 2006|02:30pm] |
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So my mom was in the computer room and so was ross and I had iTunes pulled up and my "crunk" playlist was on, so of course there is a lot of cussing, sexual stuff, and the word nigga. So this one song by Yung Joc is on and it has like a huge verse that's just like, "nigga this nigga that nigggggga yeah!" So my mom flips out and was like, "You're deleting any music on your iTunes that says the word nigga in it!!!" and I was just like "Ehhh neh?" and she got really mad, and then to make it even better Ross was like, "Dude Mom I say nigga all the time. It's just like brotha." and then my mom was like, "You better not! You're going to have to start paying rent now!"
It was classic.
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| Christmas in Hollywood. |
[27 Dec 2006|10:07pm] |
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Well… Oklahoma, but it was still very fun. My mom and I left on Wednesday at like 2ish to catch a flight at 4, which I thought was very swell because flying to Oklahoma is a lot more fun than driving there in a car for 6 hours with an over-packed car with seats that don't recline. Even though driving to the airport, checking in, and getting on our connecting flight probably took just as much time as it would have driving, but hey it was a lot more comfortable. But of course, something just absolutely has to go wrong. When we got to Oklahoma City our bags weren't there because our two flights were so close together that they didn't make the trip on time. Lame? Yeah. So that is bad news because my mom and I were supposed to go to my grandma's house, change into cocktail dresses and join the party that was already going on when we got there. So here I am in jeans and a t-shirt, just kind of like, "well shit." But there's nothing we can do but file a baggage claim report thing and hope they get to us soon, so that's what we do. When we got to her house there was already like 75 or so people there that I didn't know at all, give or take a few cousins/aunts/uncles. So I have to be dragged around and introduced in jeans with holes in the knees, how impressive. But whatever, I went with it. The next day the girls all went out to tea downtown at an art museum and after tea we took a tour. It was painful because I was wearing heels. Ross and my dad drove up on Friday and that night all of the guys went to a NBA game and the girls went to go see The Pursuit of Happiness, which was one of the best movies I have ever seen. It's very touching and I don't know, it's sad and happy at the same time. I think everyone should see it, plus, Will Smith is one hell of an actor. But yeah the next night my family went over to my uncle's house to just have dinner and chill. We ended up playing Cranium and me and Haley dominated to say the least. We kicked some major ass. Then Blair and Haley had to leave to go pick up Ben (Blair's husband) at the airport, and what do you know… they didn't have his luggage either. I guess you can go ahead and say that Southwest Airlines just suck. But anyways, Christmas day was a blast. We didn't start opening gifts until about 11, and we were done at about 2, and then we all decided to go to the gym and play basketball. I wasn't planning on playing, but I put on shoes and all that because my little cousin Julie wanted to just shoot the ball around, but it turns out that 9 people were playing so they needed one more to make it even. I wanted to just run away when he told me that because
1. I haven't played basketball let alone touched a basketball since 8th grade.
2. The people playing are crazy at basketball. Let's just go through them. Ben and Blair play basketball professionally in Australia, Haley played college ball at Westpoint, Uncle Whit might not be great but he's an insane coach, Ross my brother has mad skills, My cousin Jay is also insane, and Joey my little cousin is alright too. And then my dad and other Uncle Rob are just tall.
So here I am not a basketball player at all and he's asking me to play. I just laughed, but then I realized he was serious. Yeah, so I played. And sucked. Ben almost broke my neck, not purposely of course. But yeah, my team was Ross, Jay, Joey, Uncle Whit, and me. We lost the first 2 games and won the last one, with an assist by your very own… me. Hell yeah. But yeah, that night we went to Uncle Whit's house again and had dinner, watched old movies, and then played charades. There were some funny ones in there. Ben had to do Sex in the City. Oh yeah and I had to do the most impossible one ever in charade history I'm telling you… "Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat" Yeah, I spent about 42 minutes trying to get my team to get Amazing. It was ridiculous, but at the same time I bet it was pretty amusing. But anyways! Ross, Me, and my dad left the next day since I had to get back from swim practice, but my mom stayed and is flying in on Friday. The ride home wasn't so bad because I got this thing for my iPod that lets you play it in your car, so Ross just went from the A's to the Z's. That took about three hours, so the other three was spent either sleeping or looking at the grass go by. Yeah, when I got home I drove over to Erik's house cause he had my Christmas present, and it was super cute!! It's in my room now; let's just hope my mom doesn't look at it too closely. So yes! Were caught back up to today! I went to practice today, and it was my first time swimming since last Monday, so you can guess how much I sucked it up there. A lot. But eh, whatever. Then I went to the gym and went to Danae's house and got my present from her, she got me a shirt from American Eagle and it's hott. When I got home it felt like a semi-truck ran over my brain without my knowledge because my head was hurting like crazy! So I took about a three and a half hour nap, and now here I am writing this. So I should have a great time trying to sleep tonight since I just woke up from a nap. I'll be up till like 2. Score.
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[01 Dec 2006|07:16am] |
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texas weather is retarded. i'm never going to be able to live north of mexico.
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| Low Point. |
[20 Nov 2006|09:24pm] |
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So I'm just sitting in the computer room listening to iTunes and talking on AIM and my mom gets home and comes upstairs to ask how my day was like she does everyday and I just gave her the same answers like "It was fine." And we talk some more and I show her what I bought at the mall and then she doesn't talk anymore and is just sitting there in silence, which she knows annoys the hell out of me because she is just sitting there. So I give her a look and then she's like, "Oh yeah I forgot this bothers you." And I was just like, "Yeah…" so anyways she starts talking some more and it's still bugging me because I just want her to go away. Then she just starts asking me what the "new drama" is and I just tell her that there isn't really any drama right now, and kind of give her a look like shut up. And then she's like well you don't seem like you've been in a good mood these past few days and I was like, "Uhm I'm fine thanks." And she just keeps going! She was all like, "Well I think that you should not be in any drama and that it makes you stressed, and I think you should just stay away from it." No shit it makes me stressed, but like I said there isn't really any drama right now, and you tell me to stay out of it? Being on swim team makes that kind of impossible sorry. And even if I'm not okay, I might now want to talk to her about it so why does she pry so much? I kind of wish she would just stay out of my life and leave me alone when I need to be left alone. Which is now. I can't wait for Thanksgiving break; I need a break from everyone and everything. I think I've made it an art of acting like you are okay when really you just kind of want to get up and scream at the world that you're not. I want to talk to someone… anyone but I don't know who.
"Memories don't live like people do. Whether it's good or bad, it's just a memory."
And now I know that. I spent the last few months searching for someone better, to complete me like him. And have I found it? At times I was convinced. All I wanted was to feel loved again. And it was never too hard, but my expectations were too high. It's so easy to find something wrong in someone that's right there in front of you, when that memory of those nights you spent with him plays perfectly in your mind, but what would the benefit be in someone else? To give myself to someone else, to be completely attached and devoted to one single soul, yet again, and leave the ones that truly have emotions towards the real me in the dust? To let someone new define and change who I am, when all I really need is to learn who I am on my own.
My best friends? I wish I could spend more time with them, they are the best. But I don't need the best anymore. Sometimes I guess you've got to settle. Things change. Heck, I don't need anyone at all. I can live happy, and I can live alone. What's the point in crying on someone's shoulder that will only recite overused long ass words in order to prove to everyone that they know just what an honest heartbreak feels like? Why would I ever put forth enough effort to care about someone that only cares about me when it's convenient? Why would I ever trust anyone, when the only time I ever let my guard completely down, I was shot down. Not to mention embarrassed of my blindness and immaturity. If you "love" again so soon, that just goes to show how weak you are. If for one moment you regret how things ended up, this will all be worth it. Then again, I know you're not letting go. Do what you want, but I know who you are. Honestly, when you're that close to someone, you know what they think before they think it, you know what they'll do before they do it. And I know what you're thinking. I'm trying to protect you. Maybe one day you'll realize what it means when you tell a girl you love her. If you only saw the outcome of giving everything into making a girl desperately in love and attached.
Your emotions, though strong in the act, well, they disappeared so fast. You said forever, and people tend to believe that. You're just so sweet, I can almost believe it if I tried right now. But you left me so confused. How could it ever end like this? This was it for us. And it's so hard to realize maybe I was just another girl to you. Just one more step in the process. I still can't even understand. I keep waking up; hoping to realize this was all just a nightmare. Sometimes I dream of us together, but how could I live with the fact that I can only dream of that memory...
A memory. That's all it is now. And I try so hard to hold onto that feeling you left in me the last time we were together. But you can only hold onto a memory for so long before you begin to forget the details. The look in your eyes, the smile on your face, the outline of your body as I watched you walk to the other end of the room to turn off the TV before bed. It was your place, remember? Those things you whispered in my ear... It's still so vivid in my mind.
Maybe that's why I can't completely let go just yet. Should I wait for it to fade? Do I wait for reality to come crashing down on you? Or is this reality? Is this it? You're just you and I'm just me, and everything that's kept me breathing for the past year will be nothing but a memory. Proof to never give your life to someone, because now I know; no one is going to look out for me but me. I'm the only one that's always going to be there for myself. And I'm the only one I know that's never going anywhere.
And I'll be fine because I have everyone I need. I just need to realize what I have going for me. Where do you go when no one believes an honest person? It's one thing when you lie, but when you don't, there's this feeling you get, that let's you know you're a waste of time.
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| Lately. |
[07 Nov 2006|09:21pm] |
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So things have been absolutely great lately. And I'm really enjoying it. They were already getting better, and then the unthinkable happened and I've been on cloud nine ever since. It's like something horrible could happen, but I would still be happy because of what happened. It just makes my days go by faster, and I smile a lot more now. I'm like smiling as I'm writing this. Ohhh dang. I love this! Anyways, I haven't really written a blog since before Halloween, so a lot has happened. Not that I can remember it or anything like that, but I'll do my best. Nothing um… phenomenal has happened. Just living my life like I should. I guess I'm just taking it as it comes. I just watched X-Men: The Last Stand and it was really good. I saw it a long time ago with Erik when it was in theatres, but yeah I wanted to watch it again because I was flippin bored, and hey it gave me something to do for about two hours. But now here I am typing about nothing because I'm very bored. But I did find out some extremely amazing news earlier today!! Incubus is coming to Austin on January 18th! I'm very excited. They're like one of my all time favorite bands of my life. I thought it was pretty ironic because I could not stop listening to them today and then I hear an announcement on the radio about them playing at La Zona Rosa, and I was just like wow, it's meant to be. I can't wait. I just need a concert friend to go with me, I have one in mind. But uh they might not be in the Austin area on January 18th but I know for a fact they would like to go. But seriously, if you want to join, go right ahead because it will be fantastic. Hmm… what else is new? I dyed my hair the other weekend. Not like a dramatic change or anything, but I got brown underneath and I got blonde highlights on top. I like it, and it was on sale too. So I was just like score! Yeah… Halloween was fun. We all went to Amanda's house. Me and Amanda were hookers. Oh yes. It was quite the night. And of course all the guys were "super-heroes" with their speedos on. My favorite had to be Brandon Flowers… I mean Felipe. He was a gardener who would do your flowers for "two dolla." He made me laugh because he would talk in an accent. Yeah anyways. My mom thinks I'm a lesbian and/or bisexual. Don't get me wrong, I don't have anything against them, but c'mon. I'm straight. No shit. She said it was because when she was looking at my Space she saw a picture of me and Shayda from Halloween and it "looked" like I wanted to do her. And my caption was "she wants to bang me" and Shayda posted a comment on it saying "Sex partners for life!" Umm…use your head mom, it's a joke. I'm straight. I like the penis! Haha, sorry had too. Yeah, so I'm straight just in case my mom asks you or something like that… because she probably will. My birthday is on the 15th! You should all buy me everything!! I think that sounds like a plan don't you? Yeah, I don't really know what I'm doing but it will be cool because I turn seventeen. It's always fun to have a birthday. I'm excited. I'm pretty much sure that I'm done typing now, because I can't think of anymore useless shat to write about, so I'm sorry to you if you're reading this because I'm out.
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I'm so incredibly happy right now.
It's that feeling you get when everything goes right for a change.
But now I'm scared that things will turn to hell again.
But as of right now it's GREAT!
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| Homecoming. |
[15 Oct 2006|02:47pm] |
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| homecoming!! |
[14 Oct 2006|06:02pm] |
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Homecoming tonight!!
Gunna get our freak on!!
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| Swim Meets |
[12 Oct 2006|06:14am] |
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So yesterday was our first swim meet against Round Rock & Georgetown. And wow did I do shatty.
I swam the medely relay (freestyle) then 200 free, which umm haven't swam in a meet since freshman year so I don't exactly know what coach was thinking with that one. But yeah, the the 200 free relay which I sucked it up and went a flippin 27.1, and then 100 back. Were not even going to talk about that race. I don't like swimming races right after another. But eh. Our next meet is next Friday. Round Rock Invitational=no school, then party at my house. Oh, yes. Now...off to practice. ughhh
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| worst day ever |
[10 Oct 2006|05:51pm] |
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Today was seriously the worst day of my life.
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